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i hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving holiday. i know i did. and i have so much to be thankful for...my family, tho not perfect they are mine and i love them very much. my friends, even though they are so far away i still get to feel their love everyday. for ben, he gets it in a way that no one else has before. i truly feels like he likes me for me. he is awesome. pringle for being the cutest most precious dog in the world. my car for not breaking down on me...yet. my health and my job. im so thankful that God has blessed me with so many things. my heart is so full there are times i can barely catch my breath.

so ok...thanksgivng dinner was a ton of fun. spending time with ben and his family was amazing. i never grew up eating dinner as a family so its really nice to get to experience that. the food was amazing! im still thinking about the cheesy mashed potatos. mmm. and by some miracle his mom manged to get a wii. so we spent a few hours bowling, boxing, golfing and playing tennis. 

its been so nice having a couple of days off. i can not wait for christmas. but ive got to jump on the shopping! i have a bunch of people to shop for and so far my mom is the only one that has told me what she wants. im thinking about getting a little tree this year. im gonna be in tallahasse until christmas eve so i might as well decorate a little. 

so ive been going to church for the past couple weeks. its the best thing i could have done for myself. it really is amazing. i didnt grow up religious so God was never something i thought about. but i think i managed to grow up a decent person with a good heart. but over the past several months ive felt like something was missing. and at the time i really didnt knwo what it was. and it really is amazing the way things happen. ben came into my life, his parents just started their own church. and when we first met it wasnt like he talked about God and going to church all the time. but one night we were talking online about some stuff and it was the first time he had mentioned what God has done in his life. and something kinda went off in my head. i knew it was something i had to learn more about. so a couple weeks later me him and his parents had dinner and they answered a lot of questions for me. and that week i started going to church and ive noticed such a difference.

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On November 25th, 2007 06:12 pm (UTC), pystdragon commented:
I'm really glad you had such a great holiday.

I've also been thinking about going back to church. I grew up going every week, but I struggled with my beliefs in middle and high school and it all fell by the wayside.

I don't really know what I believe anymore, but it is something that I think about often.
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On November 26th, 2007 01:20 am (UTC), melodyjune commented:
I think it's great you are exploring Christianity :) Makes me so happy. I even talked about you on the way to church this morning haha.

The preacher said the greatest thing this morning. He was talking about how his mother had a stroke, and how she had dedicated her entire life to God, and how his first thought was, "she doesn't deserve this."

And how it has been so hard for him to come to terms with the truth, and that the truth is, no one deserves anything from God. Anything we get is just a blessing. Once you start feeling like you deserve something or are entitled to something, you aren't truly thankful, you are proud, and that is unacceptable.

One of the most moving things I've heard in church in a very long time. I love being knocked back down to humble :)

love you!
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